a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 #

letra de incapable - unbound joy & deadpan

deadpan:
f-ck
time to drag myself through another day
blinds closed ’til the sun goes away
look in the mirror; it’s covered in hate
i’m the only one in my place
mental state is like a slippery slope
hit the bottom, never been here before
ignoring everything my history shows
the punching bag of a deliberate joke
fixated on my death since my dad had cancer
leaving me incapable of banter
only thing that occupied my mind was when and how
my breath would leave my body and how i could make it happen faster
pictures of when i was a kid
make me feel nothing
empty as the want to be fixed
or my f-cking stomach
envy that toddler’s eyes, where not a lot of trauma lies
happiness fossilized in time, now my demonic side
is locked inside my rotting body while my mind is biding time
tryna find the will or sign convincing me that i am fine

unbound:
the doom blooms in my room when i’m thinking of you
always stuck in the blue
only thing to ever help is when i’m looking at you
now i’m stuck in my mind
write some sh-t, waste my time
i can never be true
i just wanna feel alive
feeling just like the moon
i’m lost in your eyes
wonder what i can do
waking up just to cry
sleep until the afternoon
yeah i just wanna die
ridiculed since middle school
i hate myself
that’s minuscule
never open up my mouth
always look like a fool
wearing brands, throwing hands
just to feel like i’m cool
never went to a dance
i wish that were true

deadpan:
ask me how miserable is life
oh trust me, everything’s alright
in the middle of the night
the signal is missing a light
left to keep skipping the right
lash out and get into fights
melting away, frozen in the pain
each day is simply a chip in the ice
living a script with the most prophetic of myths
in a costume the life of an academic insists
nailed to the stage where all the regret is affixed
do you realize how pathetic this is?
trapped in a prison that all emotion evades
my brain is numb, damaged, almost broken, and strained
from holding in, don’t open up to cope with the pain
locked inside my room ’cause i’m a joke in a cage
it’s hard to persist
sunk in the tar in the pit
hopeless and guarded as sh-t
who would like living like this?
still mask my suicidal thoughts in dozens of lies
when i finally told my papa, said he wasn’t surprised
even though i never would have done it one of the times
i wonder what would have happened if i had done it and cry

- unbound joy deadpan

letras aleatórias

MAIS ACESSADOS